Demi Lovato Talks Self-Harm In August 2012 Issue Of ‘Self’ Magazine
Demi Lovato celebrates her birthday on August 20th and to kick things off with a good start, the ‘Give Your Heart A Break’ songstress covers the August 2012 issue of ‘Self Magazine.’ Lovato is a typical summer beauty stunning in a number of bright outfits on a sandy beach with her long blonde locks and absolutely curvaceous body. Ooh la la!
While the photos may be cheerful, Lovato opens up to ‘Self’ on her bucket list, feeling beautiful, judging the ‘X Factor,’ her eating disorders, self-harming and rehab among other exclusive topics.
Here’s what Demi Lovato had to say:
On her friends helping her become healthy: “I surround myself with people who make positive decisions and who have more interests than wanting to go to clubs and get wasted. My friends and I look out for each other, and I love just inviting everyone over to watch TV. I like Law & Order—except it makes me want to go out and inspect everyone on the street to see if they’re a serial killer!”
On being the youngest judge on ‘X Factor’: “It’s so much fun! I root for everyone. I mean, it’s not the best feeling when you’re watching someone and cringing. But when a person’s confidence is magnetic, I don’t even have to hear her to think, Oh, this girl has got something.” “Britney is such a sweet girl! We’ve gone through a lot of the same things, so we have a connection.”
On rehab: “I’ve spent the past two years getting over an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. Unlike a person who doesn’t have these problems, I have to work on this stuff every day. I’m reminded of that whenever I eat or feel down.”
On going public about her eating disorder: “When I was younger, stick-figure thin was in and nobody was talking about eating disorders. I want girls to know that it’s OK when they grow up and their body changes. I want them to be aware that certain things they might do to lose weight can be dangerous—life-threatening, even.”
On Cutting: “There were times I felt so anxious, almost like I was crawling out of my skin, that if I didn’t do something physical to match the way I felt inside, I would explode. I cut myself to take my mind off that. I just didn’t care what happened. I had no fear.”
On being diagnosed as bipolar: “Finding out I had a real emotional disorder helped me put together the pieces of the puzzle. I remember being on my tour bus thinking, My life is so awesome right now, but I’m so depressed. Then, a few days later, I’d be on top of the world. It was really confusing. When I got diagnosed, my life made more sense.”
On being a spokesperson for Love Is Louder: “When I was 12, I was bullied. It wasn’t physical, but sometimes I’d say to the girls, ‘Hit me! What you’re doing verbally and online is so much worse.’ That’s when a lot of my issues spiraled out of control. The things they called me will stick with me for life.” “But going through that also made me stronger. Mean comments don’t affect me the same way because I’m more confident. If I read something where someone calls me a bitch, I know I’m not, so I laugh at it.”
On her current happiness: “Definitely. You can choose to work toward happiness or not. I used to expect it to come to me, but it takes more than seeing a therapist once a week. I make time for myself and meditate. And I haven’t used my cell in three months! Subconsciously, it was a crutch. When a room gets quiet, what do you do? Grab your phone! Now I can sit and have conversations with people.”
On feeling beautiful: “I used to feel my most beautiful when I was on the red carpet or at events or something where I’m all dolled up. Now I feel like the moment when I feel most beautiful is when I’m able to hang out with a guy without my makeup on or lay on the beach with no makeup on and not even worrying about what my hair or what I look like before I fall asleep. When I’m confident enough to show myself without makeup on, that’s when I feel my most confident.”
Demi Lovato will celebrate her 20th birthday on August 20th. How cool is that?
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Photo Credit: Self Magazine.