It’s the moment that everyone has been waiting for, the most highly anticipated episode of ‘Oprah’s Next Chapter,’ featuring global phenomenon Rihanna.
Oprah has been building hype for the episode over the past few weeks sharing photos and releasing short clips from their conversation but now that the full episode has been aired, we’ve been exposed to a side of Rihanna that only Oprah and her maternal conversational style could reveal.
Sitting with the talk show legend at Sandy Lane, she took the time to answer everyone’s questions about Chris Brown with tears in her eyes. “I’m single but we have maintained a very close friendship since the restraining order has been dropped,” Rihanna said. “It’s not easy.”
“We went to a mutual friend’s party on a yacht. It’s awkward because I still love him,” she said, confirming that they met in St. Tropez earlier this year.
“We love each other and we probably always will, and that’s not anything that we’re going to try to change,” Rihanna told Oprah, explaining that when they see each other, “it’s awkward because I still love him…my stomach drops and I have to maintain this poker face and not let it get to the outer part of me. I have to maintain that and suppress it.”
“I think he was the love of my life,” she added. “He was my first love and I see that he loved me the same way…I truly love him—the main thing for me is he’s at peace. I’m not at peace if he’s not happy or he’s still lonely. I care. It actually matters that he finds that peace.”
Rihanna also revealed that she has found it within herself to forgive him for his actions in 2009. “All kinds of emotions started happening after that. All kinds of things started making sense. I thought I hated Chris and I realized it was love that was tarnished. It looked like hate because it was ugly, it was angry, it was inflamed, it was tainted and I realized that what it was is, I have to forgive him, because I cared about him still. And the minute I let go of that, I started living again.”
Apart from discussing her ex-boyfriend, she also spoke about the price of fame, the death of her grandmother and the effect that it had on her, took Oprah on a tour to her old neighbourhood and presented her mother Monica Fenty with the gift that she’s always wanted to give her, a brand new home!
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